On the brink of self discovery

I'm here now.

I don't know where here is apart from where I am now.

I need to discover more.

I need answers just like everyone else but i had to leave to even begin to ask or understand them.

The strangest thing is knowing i need to find myself but having no clue where to look. Pursuing life solo and discovering the world as an individual, alone, something obviously is missing.
lacking.

I'm starting to realize my abilities and powers as a single being.
What plain am I even on? Where do I rank?
I wonder so often if I'm searching for something....
or someone.


Is there someone searching for ME? Without even knowing?????


I am fucking powerful. We are all so powerful. I am here for a reason.

My success is in my control and if my vision were clearer and allowed me to see my downsides and downfalls it might become less blurry.

List your weaknesses.

I am a selfish motherfucker. Change now or as soon as you know what to change into.. and what for. Talking to myself here of course.

Don't think for a SECOND that you lack power or strength.

Don't ever question your sanity or sanctity.

We are creating everything around us.

Although the world isn't revolving around you.. It is in your power to revolve yourself in key aspects of the world and life around you.


Culture. Experience. Understanding. Equality. Compassion.


REMEMBER!
Your putting out the energy you create. Focus on these energies and harness them to let others feel.



My understanding of the control factors of weed will help me move to a higher level.

I love weed.

But once I admit that it is a downfall in every day life and should be set aside for true creative enhancement... I will then enhance my own life and creativity.
It has already begun
I just think positive and know I need progression and steady focus.


I need to prioritize.

What am I chasing?

In search of happiness I have come to understand what brings a lack of it, and by flipping this concept am able to counter act the oppression from the lack there of.

So what brings me down?

Time.
Like its always running out.

Money.
The ultimate controller.

My own frivolous spending and fear of running out, which always happens.


Love.
That mysterious empty space inside without knowing what it would be like filled up. It is a lack of love that brings me down for no reason.

Ego.
My obsessive, self conscious strive to be known. I feel like I need to follow my heart more to purify my music, and hopefully open the world to it without force.





Taking these all into consideration I have begun to break them down, almost in a systematic order to find all the details regarding the relativity they have to my life, actions and personal happiness.

I haven't felt this good in months, and I can feel it in my heart that I'm finally figuring out who I am and why I am here.